Story by Sara Springer
Hi. My name is Sara. I have been diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, depression and post-partum depression.
I have sought treatment for the last 12 years in the form of counseling and prescription medications. They are used to balance the chemicals in my brain as well as lessen the physical manifestations of anxiety that I experience on a daily basis. These include palpitations, chest pain, shortness of breath, regular and vivid nightmares, the inability to quiet my mind once a fearful thought enters it, and the subsequent behaviors I implement in an attempt to bring that oh- so- desperately sought after silence.
I fall prey to a panic attack several times a month. What does that feel like? Legit, like I am dying. All the above symptoms with uncontrollable tears and all consuming abdominal pain and nausea {even vomiting at times}.
I have begun to recognize what is happening which makes it easier to find my breath and breathe. And to ask for help. Long ago I realized that my quiet mind led to my loud, obnoxious anxious thoughts. I have been known to succumb to irrational fears and overwhelming nothingness.
I keep going. Even when it feels impossible. I use counseling. And distraction. And meditation. And medication. And, that’s okay. You?
Keep fighting. Ask for help. Don’t give up. It will get better. You are not alone. You matter.
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